Inside My Head

Have you ever had that drama/situation in your head? Like everything is gonna go your way. You're the hero, you get the girl/boy, happy ever after and all that. Well news flash, it ain't happening. A little back story about me, ever since my parents divorced, I stop telling lies, I bluff, but I don't lie. The girl that I like (read previous post) thought she was overthinking she thought I'm catching feeling towards her. Since I'm a dumbass I decided to lie instead of telling her the truth. Why? Cause I don't want to lose her. I told her yes she was overthinking and I love what we already have, friends, nothing more, nothing less. What and Idiot, but i digress. Ever since the quarantine I've decided to tell her about my feelings towards her cause life is to short to be keeping secrets like that. And let me tell you, boy it was a mistake. I got shut down just like that, I was hoping that she could see maybe hey, its worth a shot since we've known ea...

I met her during degree (2017), I thought she was the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. Few months later I befriended her, we got really close during our second year (2018), but by that time she was already on a relationship. Not gonna lie, I was a bit devastated when I found out about that, but at the same time I was happy for her, she was happy, she was really happy, and that meant a lot to me. As long as she's happy I'm happy, even though I have to bury my feeling for her. Then 2020 came, we're closer then before. She always come to me for advice, someone to talk to. I'm basically her teddy bear. She recently just broke up with her significant other, it was a sad moment to be honest. I can see that she was a wreck, like really bad. I was there the whole time, making sure she's okay. Then in that that spark in me came out, that feeling I've been buried for quite sometimes. I tried to ignore it, but it's getting really hard to contro...