I have feelings for her.



I met her during degree (2017), I thought she was the most beautiful girl I've ever seen.
Few months later I befriended her, we got really close during our second year (2018), but by that time she was already on a relationship. Not gonna lie, I was a bit devastated when I found out about that, but at the same time I was happy for her, she was happy, she was really happy, and that meant a lot to me. As long as she's happy I'm happy, even though I have to bury my feeling for her.

Then 2020 came, we're closer then before. She always come to me for advice, someone to talk to. I'm basically her teddy bear. She recently just broke up with her significant other, it was a sad moment to be honest. I can see that she was a wreck, like really bad. I was there the whole time, making sure she's okay. Then in that that spark in me came out, that feeling I've been buried for quite sometimes. I tried to ignore it, but it's getting really hard to control myself. But then she told me something that is really hard for me to hear. She'll be really heartbroken if I have feeling towards her, cause she love what we're having already, just friends. I was gonna cry at that point, and I haven't cried since my parent divorced. So back to burying that feeling.

Now she's doing better everyday while I'm struggling to keep my feeling confine. Honestly I don't know what to do. Do I tell her and jeopardize what I have with her? Am I being selfish? I don't know what to do. I love her, I wanna be with her, I wanna take care of her, I wanna have a future with her. Do I confess to her? Or do I just contain my feelings towards her.

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